Say It Sunday

So, I said that I was going to post every day and I am going to post. But, I thought for Sunday's I'm just going to say it, say anything, just say what's on my mind or what I'm doing.

So, today I struggled. I'm a mom, to 3 children no less, so some days I struggle. I struggle to be pulled into that many directions at once, to constantly have someone need something...none of them being me...and well, to be needed that much. I know being needed that much is something that most moms live for. But me? Well, I struggle with it...not always, but sometimes. I am also a stay at home mom, so I work 24 hours a day 7 days a week, with usually no breaks. I have a 1 year old that doesn't really want anyone other than me, but also doesn't really want to do anything that I need her to do, like eat normal meals or take naps. I have a 5 year old that feels like she never gets enough attention, even if she has had attention all day. And I have a 7 year old who is easy to forget is there because he will go off by himself for hours, but needs attention too and sometime needs it forced on him (which he usually enjoys).

So, I struggle. I also struggle with the amount of love that I have for those children and never feeling like I am good enough for them. They are sweet, they are kind, they are loving, polite, and smart...am I good enough to deserve them? Sometimes I don't think so.

But, I will continue on. I will continue to love them every day. I will continue to try and be a better mom, a better wife, a better friend, daughter, sister, and person. I will strive to push down those feelings on anxiety and stress and wake up to another day, positive that it is going to be great.